Out of My Mouth, My Heart Speaks

I've been under attack mentally for the last two weeks....the stress of living God's way and batttling my flesh, mostly my mind...has been a little unbearable...yes, I rock the lastest from, clothes, shoes and a smile, but secretly going crazy. And not to mention this is the season that I have to walk alone. Have friends from h.s, college, and church but I'm alone. Surrounded by many, but I am the only one in the room. I only talk to myself and God...and I even answer myself...so many would say, Im Insane. Thoughts racing, mind bogging things, and I try to escape by sleep, but things appear in my dreams as well...this church memeber that keeps appearing in my dreams???? Many say if it wasnt for God I woulda lost my mind....is it possible Im losing my mind, with God? I mean spirits are attacking me mentally from every angle. Whats the deal? Currently, I am in Dayton Ohio which has been a good thing, no thinking has to be done here....do I need to move from Lex, where things ...

Yesterday one of my friends-well we are rebuilding a friendship gave birth to a 8lb 6oz baby boy...i wasn't there for the actual birth but just being there was amazing. I've never been around a baby the day of birth and I have plenty of God kids. Just being there made me want to be a mom. I wasn't exactly sure until yesterday. Its the most precious thing ever and the greatest gift, another life that you created. But a lot of responsibility comes with that gift. Like anything God gives you. I just wanted to share with someone my over joyous experience about new life. I mean everything about him was just so little and so cute. I WANT ONE! (not anytime soon though). You know the song: first comes love, then comes marriage then comes the baby in the baby carriage.