Out of My Mouth, My Heart Speaks

Recently, I've been in conversation with friends, females and "the list" seems to be in most of our conversations about men. All Women, regardless of race or age have "the list." The List is what type of man a woman wants. It's personal preference. But usually the list have similar things on there, like He must know and love God and have a job, etc. The above mentioned are usually on most women's list and most important to most. Of course: looks, a car, apt/house(not living with parents) and some form of education are the jist of the list as well. All of my friends are independent, educated, in their career or working on it...and doing what they got to do. But there's a link missing. No1 to submit to. This could stem from a lot of things: looking in the wrong place, baggage, to independent, the ratio of women to men, etc. But what I see the problem to be, is the list. Most list are not realistic and some of my friends/women in general are not willing...

I am sitting here listening to Kelly Price new CD and a song entitled, "The Rain" comes on. The Lyrics are as follows: It's funny but I can't laugh it's so sad but I cant cry but it doesn't mean there's nothing left inside. I got some nasty scars to prove what I been through I guess it's safe to say that I'm nothing like you. When your smile is your best kept secret when you smile they say girl just keep it desperate for change but things never change. Chorus: So I'd rather stand in the rain through it's poring down on me but its washing all my pain away. The waters rising high it over takes my life lying saturated I am won't let it drown me cause hope has got me floating behind the clouds a rain oh waits for me. Away, away, away...pain. Pain is gone it's raining because it's raining on me draining my pain away its raining washing my pain away washing my tears away. So I'd rather stand in the rain. This song says a lot, its ...

Sat down and I thought I knew what I was gone write about: my christian journey-nope, my testimony, not ready yet, cuz its things in my life that I've repressed and completely wiped out my memory bank, I think Ive only shared with one other person and that's the Gregory Pooh, but I vaguely remember telling him. But Imma write about what I've been struggling with lately. I've been struggling with my FAITH. I spoke with my best friend this morning who is a minister and I was telling her about my lack of faith. It has a lot to do with me trying to be realistic...I have to remember that God is a spirit and he doesn't think how I think, thus the reason I need faith. My bff told me something this morning that has stuck with me all day..."Give him a chance to prove who HE is." I've been doing things on my own without giving God the opportunity to show me who HE is and how HE operates. This is true mainly with my tithes. I've told God time and time again, ...