It's Raining

I am sitting here listening to Kelly Price new CD and a song entitled, "The Rain" comes on. The Lyrics are as follows: It's funny but I can't laugh it's so sad but I cant cry but it doesn't mean there's nothing left inside. I got some nasty scars to prove what I been through I guess it's safe to say that I'm nothing like you. When your smile is your best kept secret when you smile they say girl just keep it desperate for change but things never change. Chorus: So I'd rather stand in the rain through it's poring down on me but its washing all my pain away. The waters rising high it over takes my life lying saturated I am won't let it drown me cause hope has got me floating behind the clouds a rain oh waits for me. Away, away, away...pain. Pain is gone it's raining because it's raining on me draining my pain away its raining washing my pain away washing my tears away. So I'd rather stand in the rain.
This song says a lot, its speaking to my life currently. God has been pouring down an out pour of love, kindness and blessing after blessing. Spiritual side has been great, let it keep raining in that area...don't stop. But of course I've been dealing with the natural side of things as well...I don't know why at this point of my life, I've been remembering all of the hurt, pain and things I still don't understand that happened to me as a child and in my youth. Wonder what God wants me to do with this repressed information thats now at the surface? So in the natural I need the rain to wash the pain and the hurt away. I've been battling with sharing my testimony or life story...its like a catch 22, I'm not ready yet...who wants to be so vulnerable? But on the other hand, I no longer wanna be bound, because the enemy can only work in our past. So if I am completely free from it...God will be able to saturate me. Ready to be rained on, no need for an umbrella or a poncho because I will be in a place when I can soak it all in without any residue. I will continue to stand in the rain in my spiritual walk for the thick atmosphere and in the natural, even though I can't stand the rain, I'll stay in it to produce the rainbow at the end of the rainfall.

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  1. C JaqisMay 21, 2011 at 8:18 PM

    I don't even have the words right now... all kind of stuff is coming to mind but I'll just say this... if God is bringing it to the surface, it's for you to address it and deal with it. He's showing you it's still in there unchallenged or unfinished. As far as the testimony.. type it up and save it until you feel God is releasing you to share it. it'll be therapeutic just to have written it and processed it out of your system and release. You know I'm here if ya need me. Love ya girl

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