This year

We are 6 months into the year...meaning 2013 is half way over. Umm I'm not sure how to describe this year just yet...a lot has happened thus far. I lost my best friend of 7 yrs, not in death but our relationship was on life support and I eventually pulled the plugged. I've been sick more these last 6 months then I've been in my lifetime. I dropped out of school with only 1 class left, due to no desire n time. I left my family n church of 3 yrs due to the lack of passion. I've been involved with some1 I shouldn't be n Im not sure how to end it due to my brain losing the battle to my heart. And lastly,I've decided to pack up and leave the place I've called home the last 8 years n reunite with the place I was running from. That place birthed a wounded, hurt, molested, unwanted, unloved, suicidal girl who found lust in boys n used school, homework n books as the escape of her reality. Now that lil girl meets the woman who feels unwanted yet loveable becuz God 1st loved her, who now shows affection toward others and at times she may be to emotional, who is no longer boxed in or fearful, who is independent, who is outspoken, bold and outgoing, who usually is rebellious or the outcast, who is educated, who is determind, who understands her desires and wants, one who strives to b a Woman of God with a pure heart and clean hands and this woman loves who she is now and the woman she is becoming! Ill be moving home in September but to many it doesn't seem wise or smart to leave a loft apartment and a job i love but faith doesn't look "sane or normal." It's totally a faith move. No job but I'm going. No place but I'm going. Since Jan 2013, New has been the only word I could retain or hold onto in the spiritual or natural. This faith move I believe will be one of the smartest things ever: to become debit free, to save money, to be with Family especially my grandpa who's health is declining and to do some ministry work. I'm excited as to whats next in my life, and ready to put the not so good things of 2013 behind me esp the toxic relationship. Ready to walk in newness and ready to activate love n power like never before! This year has been a preparation and learning year...while it seems like a quitting, failure or giving up yr, it's been completely a Lord, I trust you year!!! I'm so free!
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  1. C JaqisJune 5, 2013 at 5:17 AM

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  2. C JaqisJune 5, 2013 at 5:18 AM

    Yay! So glad you blogged again... I know how you feel.. this has been a rough 6 months but God is still on the throne and working on our behalf. I pray you find everything you need as you make this faith move. Just stay connected to His heart for you and don't worry about what anybody else thinks or says.

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