It's your decision!

I am the type of person that when I put my mind to something, I do it. No hesitations. But for a few years now, I've been struggling with my yes to God. My last church experience, left me with so may questions and thoughts that I vowed that I would only attend church but I wouldn't join a church, nor would I get to know anyone at or from the church. For a while, about a year, I didn't even go to church. Then after a while, I began to visit different one's in the city and couldn't find one, which was okay with me, that became another excuse for me not to attend. Eventually, I found a church, but I would only go on Weds. Sunday's, were still out the question. I began to feel like I was missing something... and I was, the further away from church, the further away I was from God...no, church doesn't equal relationship but I didn't have that either. I allowed my last church experience to get me out of relationship. And I was less trusting of clergy than ever. My prayer life was limited. Studying was almost non existent. And of course that leads to all type of things. I began going to church on Sunday's...but I would go and leave, not talking to anyone. Long story short now, I go as much as I can, I am engaging with others, not forsaking the assembly and I am in a leadership role. Which I struggle with...another blog for another day... in our leadership meeting yesterday, the first lady was quoted saying, "No one is forcing you to be saved, so if you don't want to be saved, then don't." At that moment, I realized that is the realist thing I've ever heard. So why struggle with something you have decided to do? My struggle had been, I hadn't decided. Oh but yesterday, I did. It's all or nothing. As stated, in the beginning, when I put my mind to something, I do it. So watch me as Nike say, Just do it!