Out of My Mouth, My Heart Speaks

Been "churched" all my life. Every since I can remember I've been in church, the same church. Grew up in the A.M.E (African Methodist Episcopal) church...Wayman Chapel A.M.E Church in Dayton, Ohio. While there I was under the leadership of 2 1/2 Senior Pastors. The reason I say half is because the pastor that is currently there was appointed as pastor of Wayman when I was a freshman in college so I've never really been under his leadership. My mother tells me that I was baptized but I do not have any memory of this but I believe it to be true because I've witnessed infants and toddlers in the A.M.E church get baptized. The traditional A.M.E church baptizes in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit (The Trinity). And many times it is done by the sprinkling of the water onto the forehead. So if you asked me if I've ever been baptized, my answer would be Yes. But was I baptized according to the Word, I would have to say No. I believe that deciding to...

This blog is simply to share who Ashley is. Nothing super deep...but I'm sure u will learn something about me you didn't know. Ashley Nicole Browning HE has my Yes! February 9, 1986 25 years old Favorite Colors: Navy Blue and Brown Favorite food: any kind of potatoes 1 brother: DeJuan, 38 2 half sisters: Twyla, 35 and Danyelle, 24 5 nieces and nephews Female crush:Whoppi Goldberg, lol Male Crush is... ( I have a lot) I suck my thumb I have the best boyfriend A boy Maltese: Cloud Johnson B.A in Criminal Justice Master's in Rehabilitation Counseling Passion for helping others. Mom: Eva Browning Sperm donor: Dwight Greathouse Dad: Harold Johnson Music: Neo Soul and Gospel Movies: Eddie and Sister Act 1 and 2 (basically any movie with Whoppi in it) Love to play sports Was natural for 5yrs. Wanna adopt. Wanna own a transitional house. Ph.D seeking...Dr. Browning Goofy and outgoing. Experiencing labor pains More of HIM and less of me. Love my job(s). U will never be the same at.....

The title says it all...I am currently experiencing growing pains and in the midst of growing I'm discovering places in me that I didn't even know existed, good and bad. Dealing with spirits left and right...the spirit of depression, low self esteem, bitterness, jealousy and failure. Taking one step forward and getting knocked back five steps. Not only am I experiencing all the above...this is my season to walk alone so I feel like no one gets me or what I'm going through. In the midst of it all, I am growing, spiritually. Learning that I have no other choice but to trust HIM. In the Word and praying daily, learning to seek his face, getting a Re ma word every Tues and Sun and tithing-trying to consistly . Couldn't ask for a better spiritual journey but this natural thing sucks. Trying to get Ashley back, so this week: no R&B or Rap, no facebook , no twitter,and no phone period. As of right now none of the above until Sat. Why Sat? That will be the next time I...

I get in these moods randomly and the only way to describe them is...I need a change. When I get in this mood, I don't care about most things and usually most people begin to irritate me. During this time, I am usually in my head, thinking. So to many I shut down. When I feel this way, I know that it is time for a change in my life. It can be a minor change or a major change...just as long as it is some form of change. Last change was cutting all of my hair off....not sure what this one will be? But I NEED a CHANGE.

Recently, I've been in conversation with friends, females and "the list" seems to be in most of our conversations about men. All Women, regardless of race or age have "the list." The List is what type of man a woman wants. It's personal preference. But usually the list have similar things on there, like He must know and love God and have a job, etc. The above mentioned are usually on most women's list and most important to most. Of course: looks, a car, apt/house(not living with parents) and some form of education are the jist of the list as well. All of my friends are independent, educated, in their career or working on it...and doing what they got to do. But there's a link missing. No1 to submit to. This could stem from a lot of things: looking in the wrong place, baggage, to independent, the ratio of women to men, etc. But what I see the problem to be, is the list. Most list are not realistic and some of my friends/women in general are not willing...

I am sitting here listening to Kelly Price new CD and a song entitled, "The Rain" comes on. The Lyrics are as follows: It's funny but I can't laugh it's so sad but I cant cry but it doesn't mean there's nothing left inside. I got some nasty scars to prove what I been through I guess it's safe to say that I'm nothing like you. When your smile is your best kept secret when you smile they say girl just keep it desperate for change but things never change. Chorus: So I'd rather stand in the rain through it's poring down on me but its washing all my pain away. The waters rising high it over takes my life lying saturated I am won't let it drown me cause hope has got me floating behind the clouds a rain oh waits for me. Away, away, away...pain. Pain is gone it's raining because it's raining on me draining my pain away its raining washing my pain away washing my tears away. So I'd rather stand in the rain. This song says a lot, its ...

Sat down and I thought I knew what I was gone write about: my christian journey-nope, my testimony, not ready yet, cuz its things in my life that I've repressed and completely wiped out my memory bank, I think Ive only shared with one other person and that's the Gregory Pooh, but I vaguely remember telling him. But Imma write about what I've been struggling with lately. I've been struggling with my FAITH. I spoke with my best friend this morning who is a minister and I was telling her about my lack of faith. It has a lot to do with me trying to be realistic...I have to remember that God is a spirit and he doesn't think how I think, thus the reason I need faith. My bff told me something this morning that has stuck with me all day..."Give him a chance to prove who HE is." I've been doing things on my own without giving God the opportunity to show me who HE is and how HE operates. This is true mainly with my tithes. I've told God time and time again, ...