I don't deserve....

I thank God for the things I don't deserve. I don't deserve to have such a wonderful family...yes, it may seem dysfunctional to others but to me it is just right and it is mines. I don't deserve awesome friends:the Waymanites, the VIP Crew, my kstate girls, the revolutionaries and to the ones that doesn't fit into a clique, all of them rock. At times, I have been a horrible friend, mostly due to my selfishness and instant gratification but I thank God for the things I don't deserve. I don't deserve G,who he the best boyfriend ever! He is a Man of God and he makes me want to be better. I donut deserve him for I haven't always been the best girlfriend to him, lying and being deceitful. I didn't love myself completely so I couldn't grasp the concept that someone else loved me, regardless and in spite of. It took me a while to realize that true love is possible. And that didn't come until I began to deal with me and go to the places in me that I didn't want to deal with. I thank God for the things I don't deserve. I don't deserve the new mercies I continue to see daily after all the lust, fornication, lying, drunkenness, cheating and stealing that I participated in daily. I'm definitely not saying that I am perfect, not saying I wont relapse but Just for Today I am not what I use to be. I don't deserve Grace and Mercy, but I thank God for it! Where would I be without it?

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