I'll Wait

Tues, had a discussion with my friends from church and the topic of G and I came up...how long we've been dating and when are we going to get married? We've been in each others lives since 2006, we've been serious since 2008. Lately, I've been asking myself the question how long do I wait for the ring? I may not be ready for marriage but yes, I am ready for engagement. Engagement doesn't mean we are getting married the next day, just means we are ready to take our relationship to the next step.
After the discussion with friends from church, I spoke with a dear friend, who knows everything about me and about my relationship...she basically told me to wait, don't rush it and to let it go for now. Yep, so I was koo or so I thought...but the next day I still wasn't able to shake it. So, I spoke with another church member about it and this is when I began to cut myself with my own words...told her that I've prayed and prayed and asked God for a sign. Also shared with her that I may not be in a position to hear from God or maybe I don't even want to hear from it. (Real talk). I see G as my Blessing, a gift from God, the only man I can say I truly loved and in love with. So if God was to tell me he is not the one, I would be hurt, really. But on the other hand, I would know that God is preparing someone for me, my soul mate, my yoke, my Adam. Which at this point I believe it its G, but I am asking God to send me an answer for I pray for him more than I pray for myself.
God dropped something into my spirit, WAIT. Easier said than done, but I'll wait. I want things to be right, not forced or even rushed. If G is the one, I want him to be completely ready and I want him to know without a doubt that I am his rib. I will take heed to Isaiah 40:31. Ill wait, seeking to become a Proverbs 31 woman. And I am getting into a position to where I can hear from God and be able to distinguish HIS voice from others. I'll wait.

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